I was not sure I believed in prophesies or images when I heard about others mentioning them in church. But after the angel, butterfly image I definitely did- while a butterfly may be a common picture in Christianity, I knew nothing about this and had no idea, even today I have yet to come across it except that book. So one time in March/April I am laying in bed and I have a really, really vivid image of a old cashtil, with the handle thing turning,. The handle thing stood out to me. It felt like a really, really weird image, but it was vivid and felt like one, so I didn’t get it out of my head, and I prayed for God to answer me what it was. I got no answer. I was going to church every 2nd or 3rd week unfortunately as I was submitting my PhD and busy towards its deadline which was May 19th. But I went the Sunday that week, and , it was more of a less interesting preach, doing good sort of thing, I am thinking about leaving early. Then the pastor says, he is talking about sin and what we should ask God for forgiveness. He mentions his dad used to describe it to him as a receipt from a OLD til, with the handle turning, spilling it all out.. again, these were the phrases he used. OLD til. the HANDLE turning…
July-Aug 26
I finally make it back to the Isle of Man. Thyroid under control from around April.
Church:
- The first Sunday I am back is communion, and during this the song is a slow version of ‘no longer slave to fear, a child of God’- this song was really significant to me during the time of panic Feb-June, and one of my first worship songs.
- The next Sunday, I walk into a slow version of Make Room- my favourite bit of the song that reminded me when I couldn’t make sense of what is going on, God’s ways are higher and the plan is better. The song I constantly played when I was grateful to have stumbled upon the consultancy work.
Your way is better, Jesus
Your way is better
Shake up the ground of all my tradition
Break down the walls of all my religion
Your way is better
Oh, Your way is better
PhD minor corrections+a leaf-shaped butterfly:
Early July I passed my PhD with minor corrections(very small corrections, so pretty much the best outcome). I’ve been completing these alongside consultancy work and submitted them two days ago.
Around a week ago (no idea how I did not know before) but that the thyroid is commonly described as butterfly-shaped. I randomly got into butterfly identifying and the island website lists 19 butterfly species. On my second day of butterfly-sighting I discover this:
A brimstone butterfly – known for its leaf shape.
Fittingly, with that first leaf image, where everything started. I contact the wildlife team and they confirm they are very rare over here. Just at the end of my PhD, as I was contacted within 24 hours saying the minor corrections are about to be accepted. I didn’t stick to my pact in 2023, but my journey has ended with a faith I never knew existed… and that’s just the way God works!!
In June 2025, scared for my life, extremely gutted about loosing my biggest passion running, I posted on social media bout my recent races. I used the song Make it beautiful – ‘take my pain, and make it beautiful’-Â but God has done so much more than that.