God works in million different ways. Sometimes we cannot comprehend His plans but He is always a good God.
In my personal walk with God, I have encountered many life changing incidents which changed my whole perception about God. When I was a child the most common question I always asked God was… “why me?” I had no idea…! I was a small kid who was supposed to enjoy her childhood fun but was trapped in the heavy storms of life. But God always stayed good. When I was broken hearted He poured out his love on me. When I felt lonely He assured me that He is always with me. When I got worried about my future He benevolently assured me that He has everything in control. But! There was one question I had which He never answered. And that was the only question for which I desperately needed an answer… “Lord…When will I be free from all these troubles?” All I got as an answer was His calm reassuring smile. I still remember that day when I tried to take my prayers to the Lord with praise, worship and thanksgiving and suddenly sensed a change in the atmosphere which caught me off guard…and that’s when Jesus gifted me with a vision … a vision that had the capacity to mend my broken heart. I saw Jesus deeply smiling at me … that day I felt deeply loved and accepted. I felt whole again…!
As the days passed by…everything changed except the disease…I still suffered in my body and my suffering was so horrible…but that helped me to understand and recognize the real me. You know it…for gold to be known in its purest form it will have to go through fire.
My problems weren’t so admirable but it brought me closer to God. It made me realize the true purpose of humanity that is to worship God. I became a mobile worshipper ( mobile means ‘able to move or be moved freely or easily’). Sounds crazy right?🤪
But that was the reality…My life changed…I started to fall in love with God…Jesus filled me with an eternal comfort which started to overflow from me…well that’s how it works🥰… from then even when storms come to break me I learned to sing peacefully in the soul crushing storm.
I had times in my life when I saw Jesus sitting beside me and weeping as I experienced this unbearable pain in my body …that day I didn’t ask Him why don’t you take my pain away…because someone with whom I can share my pain was more than enough…
Time passed by… He sustained me… I moved forward… and in His time… I outlived every bondages and shackles … and finally!! I became free😍☺ and only because God let me go through this rollercoaster journey I have my eternity…I have my salvation… I gained my true life.
Yes my friend… sometimes when bad things happen in our life we question God… but we never question God for the blessings He gives us😌(just a reminder😉)… but that’s ok… it is ok to express our emotions to our dear daddy and to tell Him how we feel about it. It is fine because He cares for us and we do have that freedom🤗… but even when we don’t understand…even when we don’t get a positive answer … there is this one calm assurance we have that whatever that happen in our life, Jesus have everything in control and He won’t let us go through something more than what we can bear and also He is a God who turns our sorrows into dancing!!!
So rejoice my friend…Your light has come… Rise up and shine.
With love❤️❤️❤️
Nileena Anna Varghese
Your sister in Christ.
